any better?

My life is mad, annoying and confusing but i havent got any choice but to live it. I think its getting better gradually though.

In reference to my previous blog I've kinda resigned myself now to not ever being able to be with this person that I really like (tho I was told 'never say never'!). All I want is for them to be happy and if not being with me is what it takes then so be it. If anything did happen I think I may die of shock lol! If friendship is all thats on offer then I'll take it!

I just hope that I do get a bit of love from someone, somewhere in 2007 but I'll just have to wait and see!!!

Hope everyone else is having a bit more success in that department than me!! Happy flirting!

Ive messed up!

Well I was talking in my previous post about why love is so confusing and now I think Ive just proved that point and made everything worse!

Recently Ive been really confused and really angry with myself! Unfortunatley ive fallen for someone who I cant be with for certain reasons despite knowing that!!! What makes it even worse is that the feelings that im having for this person arent like any feelings Ive had before for anybody and thats scary! Previous times I've liked someone its really just been a 'school girl crush' and I've got over it pretty quickly but with the way these feelings are different for this person I'm starting to wonder if i can get rid of them to let this person have the happiness they deserve and how long it will take to get rid of these feelings! Either way - I need to stop how Im feeling cos frankly I have no right to feel like this! This person is one of the nicest people Ive met and all I can say is I'm really thankfull for meeting them cos they've helped me out a lot. If you read this - you know who you are - thank you! You're great!

Why is love confusing?

I've had several people ask me this so I thought that Id blog about it! To be honest I don't really have an answer to this question and Id be surprised if anybody did have an answer to it!

Personally Ive found love really confusing! Its nearly at the point now where I doubt whether anything is love anymore! For one thing i think that everybody has a different experience, opinion and attitude about it. Actually - instead of me tlking about the topic - those of you who read my blog can give your opinions on this! Leave a comment on this post!

New Year!

Well its nw a new year and it better be a good one! When I look back on 2006 and think of how much ive been through and how much ive changed since thi time last year im amazed!

Oh - and sorry to you bloggers for not blogging in a while. I'll fill you in with what has been happening in my life these last few weeks...

The christmas dustman sketch that I did with Sarah (the JSS) and the junior soldiers went fab in the end and Sudbury singing company - well - what can I say - they were fantastic! I think its the best theyve ever sung! I can't wait to start singing company practices again!

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and today have been spent being very busy decorating our new house. Its starting to look really nice, although the colour in my parents room and the colour in my room is exactly the same! (we thought they were different shades but they look no different on the wall!). Only two weeks to go until we move in!!!!

Ive also still been having some ups and downs in my life but im hoping that now its a new year I can really focus on the things that are important to me in my life and start to get over the things that werent so good for me last year. I have some fantastic friends (you know who you are!) and I really hope I can start to appreciate you more and work towards a great 2007!
After all that I suppose theres only one thing left to say - Happy New Year!!!!