well a lot has happened since I last was posting reguarly. As you have prob noticed from my previous blog I am no longer going out with Mehul and am now in a very happy relationship with Matt Kinsey. Things are happening pretty fast lol. Im also well into my new course (Youth Work and Ministry) with Oasis uk and am loving it! It's defin what I've always wanted to do! On the downside, I've recently been in hospital with Gall Stones (not nice) and have got to go back just after Christmas to have my gall bladder taken out with keyhole surgery (yuck!) so am behind on youth work hours and essays and have missed four lectures of uni (which I am not happy about!). Too much to do and so little time to do it in! Anyway, speaking of that I'd better get off blogger lol so thats the update and I'll hopefully blog more often. See ya!

Hey bl.oggers! Sorry for not blogging in ages - been sooooooo busy! I am the happiest and luckiest girl on the planet cos I have the best boyfriend ever - Matt Kinsey!!!!!! I'm also doing a brill course in Youth Work and Youth ministry with Oasis UK and am finally feeling great and on the right track. Short post but will blog again soon!

update lol

Well. I seemed to have been lacking in blogginess recently lol.

As an update..

Im going out with Mehul Desai now and everything is great :)! Only prob is that my parents dont exactly approve :( so causing a few problems. Hopefully they wont stop us going out all together!

In terms of going to London it looks like im going to be homeless and penniless in september as Student Loan Co have messed me about with the forms I need and sent me the wrong ones and Oasis and Salvation Army have not found me a placement yet! Grr!

Please Pray for me! I need it! Im confused in every way!

its been ages!!

I havent really blogged much recently so heres the update...

I still havent got a placement for Oasis. Starting to get slightly worried but should be ok (I hope!!). Still can't wait to get to London though. I think its the independance factor more than anything, although i have been reading some of the recommended books for the course and am really enjoying them!!! This next year is going to me awesome!!

In terms of love life, I suppose i'd better do an update on that too. Well, the person i really liked before I've realised was a stupid mistake to like him in that way. Do I always read too much into friendships!? I don't know. But anyway, I'm just friends with that guy and I'm happy with that - in fact I feel better than i did before when I liked him as more than a friend! Weired! Anyway - been like that for a while now and I've since met another guy. I really like him and the best thing is - i think he likes me too! We'll see how things go when we meet up. I'll keep you posted! Cant wait!

Anyway - keep loving life bloggers!!

Oasis Update

It's been a while since I last blogged so I thought I'd update on how everythings going with Oasis.

Well - I've been accepted on to the course :-) following the interview. I now just have to find a placement but heared today that theres a possibility that one could be found for me very soon!! I can't wait to get to London and get started now! It's going to be awesome!

The Interview!

Well, as promised, this is a post on how the interview at Oasis went! There were a few awkward questions that I had to think about before answering but other than that I think it went ok. Of course I won't actually know how ok it did go until I find out if I got in which I should find out in about a week from now. The worst part was feeling awfully ill the night before the interview and for the whole morning travelling there! Only felt better after lunchtime so I suppose it was just nerves that got the better of me. Don't think its affected how the interview went though. Just have to wait and see!

Interview!!!

I've now got a date for my interview for the Oasis Youth work and Youth Ministry Degree course in London - 8th May at 10am! I've got to have the interview, take part in an observed group discussion, do a case study exercise and sit in a presentation about the course. Should be good! I'll post how it goes! Hopefully everything will be great!

Lazy!!!

Well I must admit - I've been lazy! In fact very lazy!!! Out of 5 projects I have to do for my degree I only completed one over easter!!! How bad is that!!!?

I suppose not being happy with the course, the lecturers or the institution itself doesnt really help matters, but hopefully I'll be out of there at the end of the academic year and doing something I've thought about, prayed about and actually want to do rather the rush job that suffolk college was!

So please pray for me if you're Christian that I will get into the course I want! If you're not a Christian and would feel uncomfortable praying - well fingers and toes crossed!!!

I'm going to the institution the course is at in London on Thursday so I'll keep ya posted as to what happens!

Big Problems and Big Changes!

Ok - so there have been several changes recently - some larger than others so bear with me!

The first problem I had is a fairly minor one but still important to me. My piano is old and frankly has served its time. The other day I was playing it and two of the keys stuck down and refused to budge until the next day! However thi is an area of change as a good friend has suprised me by buying me my dream piano - the Yamaha U1!!! I feel a bit guilty about accepting it but he won't hear otherwise so I guess im going to have to accept it! Very nice change though!

Another change that may happen is that i'm going to drop out of university! Well - not entirely. For a while I've been unhappy with the course im on and the institution. Ive always wanted a more Christian and placement based approach to doing a degree in Youth Work and didnt think such a degree existed until now! I'm hopefully going to transfer onto the Youth Work and Youth Ministry degree at Oasis UK in London in September - providing they accept my application. Finding this degree is like an answered prayer! Just hope that I do get in and can achieve my dream of being a full time youth worker!

Another problem that hasnt been solved yet and I could really do with a big change in this area is the fact I havent been sleeping properly for the last couple of months - mainly due to things in my past and my unhappiness at university. I'm hoping that the change I mentioned in the previous paragraph will help matters and as for my past - I'm hoping to see a councellor in order to free myself of these problems! Watch this space!

Lastly, just for the sake of something to write and for updatings sake - I'm still single so no change there, but to be honest, until I find someone who I'm not only attracted to but they want to be with me for who I am and not just because they want a bit of 'fun' and someone good looking on theyre arm, my status will stay single! Looking back I can see how much Ive been used. Even people I thought were my friends seem now to ignore me now the fun is over. Oh well - guess thats good cos I now know who my real friends are. I'm determined to take control of my life and hopefully end up with someone who appreciates me as a friend and someone to love! Is that too much to ask!? Oh well - I spose this is another 'watch this space'!

books, books and cars!

Well uni certainly has its costs! As does cars! For the newest modules ive started ive had to buy two new books for resulting in a cost of £60! In terms of my car - so far ive had 6 months tax - £60.50, Full Service - £90.21 and fixing car as a result of the tescos dodgy petrol - £261.99! I also need to get an mot done and renew insurance before 22nd march!

Life as a student and life as a car lol!

Life!

Im in such a weired mood! Since Sunday I've been on a high which is really weired. I also feel ready now to embrace life and the possibility of another relationship in the future although that idea kinda scares me slightly still. For some reason im still paranoid bout being in a car alone with a guy i dont know very well. Hopefully thatl change tho and hopefully soon!

However, what concerns me more at the moment is other peoples relationships. Since everything went wrong for me in my last relationship everyone i know has had a bad relationship or are currently having problems! I know its nothing to do with me but i do feel responsible sometimes for it! I really should stop interfearing and just let people get on with their relationships and wait until they feel like talking to me. Its hard tho cos I hate to see and know that good friends are hurting and i cant do anything about it!

maybe one day things for everyone will sort itself out!

Be my valentine

Happy Valentines Day.

To be honest I think this celebration is stupid but I'll say it anyway cos everybody is great and deserves to be loved. In some ways its nice to know that you're liked by someone and its fun guessing who it is but the secret admirer stuff is still annoying! But never mind - seeing as I don't have anyone particular to send a valentine to (again!) I'm gonna say I love you all lol!

Have a great day!

Its been ages!

Sorry for not blogging in a while. Since moving on the 15th on January to our lovely new house the internet has only just been reconnected!

Life has been all over the place since my last blog - some of you will know why but most of what has happened is a bit too personal to put in this blog. however - the main bit of news is that im still alive lol and the new house is absolutley great! As for the rest of my life - well we'll see how that goes. Hope those of you who read this have had a better time than me!!! I'll try and blog again soon!

Sorry for the shortness of this blog!

any better?

My life is mad, annoying and confusing but i havent got any choice but to live it. I think its getting better gradually though.

In reference to my previous blog I've kinda resigned myself now to not ever being able to be with this person that I really like (tho I was told 'never say never'!). All I want is for them to be happy and if not being with me is what it takes then so be it. If anything did happen I think I may die of shock lol! If friendship is all thats on offer then I'll take it!

I just hope that I do get a bit of love from someone, somewhere in 2007 but I'll just have to wait and see!!!

Hope everyone else is having a bit more success in that department than me!! Happy flirting!

Ive messed up!

Well I was talking in my previous post about why love is so confusing and now I think Ive just proved that point and made everything worse!

Recently Ive been really confused and really angry with myself! Unfortunatley ive fallen for someone who I cant be with for certain reasons despite knowing that!!! What makes it even worse is that the feelings that im having for this person arent like any feelings Ive had before for anybody and thats scary! Previous times I've liked someone its really just been a 'school girl crush' and I've got over it pretty quickly but with the way these feelings are different for this person I'm starting to wonder if i can get rid of them to let this person have the happiness they deserve and how long it will take to get rid of these feelings! Either way - I need to stop how Im feeling cos frankly I have no right to feel like this! This person is one of the nicest people Ive met and all I can say is I'm really thankfull for meeting them cos they've helped me out a lot. If you read this - you know who you are - thank you! You're great!

Why is love confusing?

I've had several people ask me this so I thought that Id blog about it! To be honest I don't really have an answer to this question and Id be surprised if anybody did have an answer to it!

Personally Ive found love really confusing! Its nearly at the point now where I doubt whether anything is love anymore! For one thing i think that everybody has a different experience, opinion and attitude about it. Actually - instead of me tlking about the topic - those of you who read my blog can give your opinions on this! Leave a comment on this post!

New Year!

Well its nw a new year and it better be a good one! When I look back on 2006 and think of how much ive been through and how much ive changed since thi time last year im amazed!

Oh - and sorry to you bloggers for not blogging in a while. I'll fill you in with what has been happening in my life these last few weeks...

The christmas dustman sketch that I did with Sarah (the JSS) and the junior soldiers went fab in the end and Sudbury singing company - well - what can I say - they were fantastic! I think its the best theyve ever sung! I can't wait to start singing company practices again!

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and today have been spent being very busy decorating our new house. Its starting to look really nice, although the colour in my parents room and the colour in my room is exactly the same! (we thought they were different shades but they look no different on the wall!). Only two weeks to go until we move in!!!!

Ive also still been having some ups and downs in my life but im hoping that now its a new year I can really focus on the things that are important to me in my life and start to get over the things that werent so good for me last year. I have some fantastic friends (you know who you are!) and I really hope I can start to appreciate you more and work towards a great 2007!
After all that I suppose theres only one thing left to say - Happy New Year!!!!